Open Canvas

Welp.  Here I am.   A few shorts weeks into 2021 and already a bit discombobulated. With the scary thought of an open canvas, or rather calendar, in front of me I dove right in to every opportunity that came my way.   

30 Day Habit Challenge? Sign me up.  

Online Enneagram course? I’ll take three of those!

Longing for More bible study?  I actually sent a group email to see how many others want to join me. 

Thirty Days to Healthy Living? Committed to this one with my hubby for better health.

There. That will help. Now I won’t be bored or missing social connections. 

How quickly I forgot this year’s call to stay in the present. 

I rushed ahead into the year. Into the future to plan and fill my days.

What I didn’t count on were the unexpected hard and the unexpected happy events which also fill up my calendar.  (Just last week we had both COVID quarantine, due to exposure, and family birthday week.) 

And now I am paying the price. 

It’s no wonder I spent most of last week unsettled and out of sorts.  

So this week I had to start over. 

I separated “the wheat from the chaff.” Scaled back on the classes and groups.

I got back out into the woods.  By myself this time. 

There, I was able to find grace for myself and my worry and my over scheduling. 

There, I was reminded to stay in the present. And embrace what life brings as the moments arrive.  Both the quiet and the busy.

I don’t have to be anxious and fill that open canvas. 

When I stay in the present, life fills itself.  One moment, one walk, one day at a time.